Intimacy

Poem

Intimacy

Saying no to sex with you is saying

no to you, you say. Saying no to you

is saying no to life. To love. Who do

I think I am? I’m not special. Paying

for love is just what people do. And you’ll

decide the price. And why didn’t I just

do it? What you asked. It’s like I don’t trust

you, but everyone I know knows I’m full

of fucking shit. I need someone to teach

me love, and you could do it, if I let

you, but I won’t. I am an abuser.

I need you. No one else will ever reach

out for me. Little bitch. Don’t I forget

who fucking loves me best. Fucking loser.